What Used To Be

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Thanks to Peter Hackett in your help naming this tune! Thank you to Amber Ford's message as well in helping to cement my decision for the title. This was her message to me:

"I know you asked for help naming your nameless song. I can't help with that. I'm sorry.

But what I can do is let you know what that song did...and it requires a back story.

I have lost a family member every year since 2009 (yes including 2020 already). Those deaths include the two unexpected of my mom (9/24/2011 of a brain bleed/stroke) & brother (9/17/2013 from PTSD); and expected of my dad (8/1/2019 of lung cancer- just days before my birthday on the 7th).
I have dropped a few tears here and there for my dad, but not nearly the way I did for my mom & brother. I couldn't. Until yesterday. Until I heard your song. It struck a chord and yesterday I broke. It's hard to verbally explain the juxtaposition of feelings, thoughts, and visions that flooded my body and mind all at the same time. Same as the melody that your song holds.
The relief, freedom, & happiness for them. The pain, grief, & the "not yet" that's been left behind.
This has truly been a huge step in my healing. Thank you for that.

More than anything, I want to thank you for sharing your gift and allowing it to help others."